Is Space always a Bad thing?

I'm tired of constantly wishing I could be part of something bigger. What is bigger than my own soul? My own potential? My own dreams?

I want to be comfortable with that. who I am and not just where i stand in comparison to others.

Whats with that? Whats with my need for comparison?

I need more vulnerability and less judgment. More unity with my family and other affiliations and less alienation.


Did Dostoevsky ever wish he could be friendlier and less socially prickly?

How frustrating is it what it takes a lifetime to learn what we thought we had mastered at 9? Lose yourself for my sake.........

Is asking for space to figure these things out only counterproductive?